A little too numb, a little too shaken.

As I sit in front of my laptop, with tabs related to the gang rape opened and hearing my family talk about the deteriorating condition of the 23 year old anonymous girl fighting for her life, I don't know what to write. I'm a little too numb from the insensitivity of the government to make a comment after 7 days about the incident that shook the country, a little too shaken to see how desperate our government is to suppress the protests, a little to stupefied to see how easy it is for the ministers to pass comments after comments in the safety of their homes which are guarded by umpteen number of special force guards, a little too shocked to see just how low the major section of our society can stoop to get the pleasure for just a few minutes, just to feel superior.

Do the daughters and the sisters of these high profile ministers know how it feels when you walk out of your house, cover a distance of just 100 meters and have 5 pairs of eyes look at you, 5 different men singing cheap songs as soon as they see you? Do they know how it feels to think twice before going out once its dark? They don't. They don't because they have 10 cars behind theirs to protect their wives, sisters and daughters. And well, lets face it, in a country where power of the chair works, who would mess with these fancy people?

But what about us? What about those girls and women who go out to buy vegetables or to their office to work or the ones who go out to meet their friends and watch movies? What about those who don't have 5 body guards around them when they get off at a mall? What about those girls who have been raped and are forced to sit in the corner of their house because "unki izzat loot gayi hai?". Its it too much to ask for a city where safety is ensured, where a girl can just go out at anytime without having horny gawks scanning her from head to toe?

Whats so wrong with the whole country stirring up? Whats so wrong with everyone peacefully protesting at India gate against this heinous crime that there were endless rounds of shelling tear gas, water canon charges and batons? Whats so wrong with wanting to have those sick minded men castrated or hanged till death?

Capital punishment is given only in the rarest of the rare cases, then please, as a 20 year old girl living in this completely unsafe city, I would like to have an answer to the question that if this isn't a rarest of the rare cases then what is? A rod was inserted into a girl, she was hit brutally for biting and resisting them to save herself, she was  horribly raped, she was left on the road naked with her friend on the road. If this isn't rarest of rare then please someone come up and define for me what rarest of the rare is.

Yes, I agree the government is wrong. They should do something about this immediately. Even though capital punishment seems too easy a way out for those beasts, it will deter rest of those at least. But will it change how those men look at you when you go to the markets or when you go out to buy a pen or vegetables or when you go to the mall or when you take the bus?

Yes, we need harsher laws for such crimes. Rapes happen day and and day out. Not even half the cases get so much public attention as this one. Yes laws might lower the molestation. They might deter the horny bastards that move freely in our society. The might lower the possibility of another Guwahati case of public molestation and make the whole country and not only our city safe. But it can not change the mentality.

Are the laws ever going to change the mentality and stop every second "padha-likha" guy or not, from looking at a girl across the room and saying "Oi, bhench*d, kya cheez hai. Tota.". Is the law going stop these sick men from looking at a girl and stripping her naked with just their eyes? The laws would probably just lower the numbers but it can't do away with rapes. If today, every boy present in the protests can consent to never looking a the hottest girl wearing a mini skirt with a single inappropriate thought in his mind or rating her with his friends on a scale of 10, we can say that this incident made a difference. Its, firstly, the mentality we have to change. If that is changed then half the battle is won.

And to those the horrible men out there. If you really are men why do you have to force a girl to show your superiority. How much lower are you all going to stoop? Are you really so desperate to feel the pleasure that you'll rape anyone, from an 8 month old child to a fully grown woman? Man up and start being real men. Find better ways to show that you're powerful. All that raping a girl shows is how sick you all are and nothing else. Man up, you filthy creatures. Stop raping the innocent girls and do something better with your lives. The lawless animal world is better off than ours till the time you all exist.

An off day

So yes, everyone has days when they hate everything around them. They act annoyed, have mood swings, procrastinate and probably act like irritable-jealous-bitches. But then its just one of those days in a long while because you have something to piss you off to that extent.

I'm having one of those days today. I'm sitting infront of the laptop with a frown on my forehead and really irritated expression typing this. Sadly, at this moment Toblerone isn't helping either. So I turned to writing. Now, whats making my day go so bad that Toblerone ( one of my favourites, isn't working?)  . To begin with its the weather. I HATE winters. My hands and feet and nose are all cold. My nose is all red. No matter how many socks I  wear, my feet are ALWAYS blue. The other thing that would be annoying me is my exams.

Now lets take it one at a time. No I'm not sad that I have exams. I'm sad that they are in this weather. I can't write, I can't study and I can not afford to flunk a paper. So yay! a brilliant start to December. So basically it all roots from the stupid weather and the worst part is that the real winters haven't even come yet. Oh God, save me from January. Anyway, my blog posts are not for a person who'd want to write my biography because well, I'm  not THAT narcissistic. I am a good and a sane person even though I'm having my off day.

So these are the things I did to make myself feel better and I ask you not to do them. It doesn't help. At all.

#1. Talk to a friend in Goa.

Okay then. Talking to a drunk friend in Goa on your off day, not a good idea. Not a good idea at all. When he tells you he is on Baga Beach(which is super crappy, but still MUCH better then your political science books) and on his 15th beer after 4 glasses of whiskey, talking about how amazing the wind is and the sound of the sea is, all you feel like is punching that bastard in the face. :|
So please, do NOT talk a friend who is on a vacation while you're stuck at home studying. BAD idea.

#2. Talking to a relatively new friend.

Now here is the problem with this, the new friend might be super nice and caring but it gets rather funny when they act all best friend-y. Thats not really gonna help, the over attachment, I mean. So the right thing to do is to call up a close friend who is not in Goa and talk to them so that they call you names and you get back to normal.

#3 Eating Chocolate. (this one is mainly for girls)

You're having an off day, you're bound to over think and feel bad about EVERYTHING. You will just keep eating them but then you'll feel all guilty because you are already gaining weight. So, keep the chocolate away. The guilt will just make your day worse and you will feel guilty because an off day is a bitch.

#4. Whatsapp.

Oh my God. People just don't stop messaging! After a while it gets annoying. Especially when your fingers are frozen and you are not used to the new touch phone. Chatting with 5 people on 10 different topics, not fun. So please turn it off before you get mad at someone for just talking to you.

#5. Watching House MD.

Listening about creepy diseases and watching people cut into others, well, its gross (unless you are a doctor). So while Dr. House's experiments with LSD and/or his cheeky-ness is fairly entertaining, its very annoying when you're pissed with life in general. (my suggestion, watch Suits. That show can blow anyone's mind)

Now that was the top 5 things not to do on your off day. Here are two or three things that you should do and would make you feel on a generally-pissed day.

#1. Status updates!

I know you're thinking how can status updates help? Well they can if you are having your off day on the day same as an awesome football match. I was lucky and had my off day on the day of Manchester Derby. The status updates after the match made my day. I swear. When it comes to the Reds, the shit is always serious.

Ps, everyone thank Arsenal. I swear I would have kissed RVP had I been on the field for scoring that goal.
Also, you'd be luckier if you see Chelsea lose against united on your off day because the status updates are even better that day, but ofcourse the condition for that is that you have to dislike Chelsea. 

#2. Stalk a cute guy.(again for girls)

Having an off day? Stalk a cute guy you know. That is one thing that always helps because lets face it, ITS A CUTE GUY! Its even better when the guy plays some musical instrument and is smart. Thats a combo every girl wants in a stalkable-cute-guy.

#3. Talk to an old friend.

So I talked to an old friend who just bought a new car. Well, they bought it a month back but I just found out. So the good part about that was that I can demand a good long ride in the Merc for getting to know this late. Hence talk to an old friend, its not that they come up with the line "Sex on wheels"everyday. They will make you laugh.

#4. SLEEP and FOOD!

Sleep and food. That is the answer to EVERYTHING. Period.

Everyone is allowed to have off days. No matter how irritable you get. Everyone is allowed to get pissed under pressure or because its just a glum day. In the end all you have to do is go back to studying Marxism because you have your stupid ass exams coming up!
Haha. I hope you guys enjoyed this post. Venting out here did make a feel better and I can peacefully go back to doing whatever I want. :)

We're the most AMAZING couple, EVER.

So dating someone is pretty normal, now days. Every second person is or has been in a relationship. The funny part about it is that all these most amazing couple ever, at some level are exactly the same. To point it out the irony, each one of them thinks they're different and the best couple ever. :P

Here are the top 10 cliches and stupid things that couple do. Hope you enjoy them.


10. Pehle tum. Pehle tum.
Guy: "Okay, babe, I'm going now. Mujhe kaam karna hai."
Girl: "Jaa rahe ho?"
Guy: "Haan. I have loads of work."
Girl: "Toh phone rakho!"
Guy: "Nahi. tum rakho."
Girl: "No. You hang up!"
Guy: "You."
Girl: "You. You have to go. You cut the call."
Guy: "But I can't hang up on you."
Girl: "Then don't."
Guy: "But I really have to go"
Girl: "Then hang up."
Guy: "No, you hang up"
Girl: "No. You!"

*After approximately spending another 10 bucks of your balance*

Guy: "Rakho na, phone, Jaanu, please?"
Girl: "Nahi na. Tum rakho. Please?"

Okay people. Seriously. Just hang up the damn phone. You know one of you will eventually have to keep the phone down. Fighting over it for half hour isn't going to solve anything. And very frankly, its ANNOYING if the third person has to listen to this conversation. :|

9. How will I live without you?
"You mean the whole damn world to me. How could I ever live without you? Please stay this way. Forever"

So it has been just 10 minutes since you asked her out and you have this as your status message right after you change your relationship status on facebook. You know how will you live without each other?
Exactly how you were living 15 minutes back before you asked him/her out.

8. Status Messages/Wall posts.
Hyper girlfriend on Perfect boyfriend's wall : ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ I looooveeeeeeeee youuuuuu! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ :* :* :* :* :* :* :* :*:*

Perfect boyfriend just updated his status:
"Is this really love? I think it is, because you complete me and you make me smile like no even else does.. I love you. ♥ :*" 

Hyper girlfriend just updated her status:
"Life is beautiful again. I know we have our ups and downs. But in the end we always make up. ♥
@perfect boyfriend"


Okay then. We don't need to know the magnitude of "love" you have for each other. Really. We're very happy minding our own business and living our own lives and having random 9gag posts that random friends have posted on each others walls. We're even okay with the occasional outburst of love for your girlfriend/boyfriend but every single hour when you post every bloody detail of your relationship. Well seriously people, its annoying and we really wish we could unfriend you but that'll be super rude so please find some other place to be mushy.

7. Hubby! Wifey!
In hurry to get married. Are we now? Yes. We're just teenagers. We've been dating just for 6 months but I'm okay with calling you my "hubby"or "wifey" because apparently we can't wait to get married and we're so totally mature to.. you know.. find the perfect match.
Just one question from such couples though, why don't you just elope and make it official. At least eloping would make you look a little less stupid.

6. Karva Chauth
Yes. I'm not married to you. We're currently fighting. We might even end up breaking up. But who the hell cares? Its Karva Chauth!! I'm going to fast for my guy and since he loves me so much and can't see me hungry all day, he is fasting too.

Aww.. So much love and stupidity to the level beyond the human imagination! I mean people, seriously. Did the sanctity of Karva Chauth bury itself or did you just forget about it? :|

5. Facebook Pictures and Captions.
*decently good profile picture*
Caption: 
Mr. Perfect boyfriend. I've out this picture up because you look so good. I look so fat and chubby but how can I not put up this picture, you're smile and your eyes! We always look good. Us♥"

First of all girl, you're contradicting yourself. One side you say you're looking fat on the other hand you say you you both always look good.
Secondly, ITS YOUR PROFILE! How does him looking good matter? If you don't like that picture because you don't look good in it, why the hell would you put it up? Well, unless, you're putting it up to get over 50 likes and "aww.. you look so cute together" type comments. In that case  please refer to point number 8. We're just being polite by liking and commenting. We really don't care.

Ps, we're really not interested in the pictures you're practically all over each other.  People who want to see that stuff know where to find it so lets just please keep facebook clean?

4. My friends, your friends. Your friends..we'll see.
Girl: We're going for a movie this friday right? Lets go to some lounge too after that? My best friends will join us too.
Boy: umm.. Okay. Sure. And she is coming? Cool. I'll call my friends too. We all can hang out together.
Girl: "Do you really have to call your friends? I'm not very fond of them. Friend no, 1 gives me weird looks. Friend no.2 is just plain mean . And don't even get me started on friends no.3.
Boy:Fine. It'll be just you, me and your best friend. I'll come up with an excuse to tell the guys.
Girl: Why do you need an excuse? Just tell them you're with me. 

So this happens to every other couple. The girl's friends have to be the guy's best friends. But the Guy's friends can go to hell.
Now is that really fair? And all you guys out there, friends always come before the girlfriend.  After all you'll be whining in front of us after two months when the bitch stomps on your heart and dumps you.

3. We're a couple. Its either the both of us or none of us.
What kind of condition is THAT? You're going to be cheap about it and get me only one gift but I have to pay the per head cost for the both of you so that you can come to my party and get a damn khopcha to yourself and get high on the booze I pay for?
That really not fair. Also, have you considered the possibility that if I liked the person you're dating I'd invite them on my own?
Just the the hint, genius!

2. You're PERFECT for me and I'll spend all eternity with you! *heart shaped eyes and a stupid smile*
Hyper Girlfriend: "You're so perfect. I don't deserve someone as awesome as you. No matter what I won't leave you. EVER."
Perfect Boyfriend: "Babe, its me who got lucky. Not you. You're beyond perfect. You're better than my dreams come true. I'll be with you and we'll be this way FOREVER."

This is the most common among new love birds. You guys just met. Do you even know how long eternity is?
Of course you don't. No one does. Because it ETERNITY!
You just know each other's name and you wanna spend your lives together. Are you f*cking kidding me? :|

Please kids, leave this one to the pros. If you still feel this way after a year then probably you could use the "how did I get so lucky?" line but right now, its just plain cheesy.

1. "I love you more" "No, I love you, more"
Again, kids, leave to the pros. And please make sure you're not doing it infront of your friends. Its actually very annoying. And you're new in this relationship. You aren't even sure if you "love" the other person. So please let the people ho have been dating for over a year bother about who loves whom more. You just enjoy honeymoon phase and try not to be cheesy. 




There are MANY more things that are common to almost every couple. I just pointed out a few for fun. And I friend of mine just got into a relationship so Congratulations to you, because I know you'll read it and you know who you are. And I'm sorry for taking up a point or two from our conversations. Its just really funny. Hope you and your chick actually do have eternity together. :)

The Road, Taken :)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

How do you know that the choice you're making is the correct one? How many times do you get the opportunity to choose your path? How often does it happen that you know that you'll have to face a challenge at every step and you'll actually enjoy it? You know you're screwed but you're looking forward to it? How many times does it happen that you're happy about the fact that you chose the harder way? The elders tell you that every step in life is a challenge but exactly how many of those do you bring upon yourself?

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

You weigh your option. You have to decide. Its as if someone has kept you on a gun point and you have to make the choice. You know its not going to be easy. This decision can not be undone, yet you must choose fast or the time will run. Its a choice, you have to make, no matter easy or hard. Its a choice you have to make forgetting your easy and glorious past.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

Trusting yourself you make your decision. You bet on yourself and take a leap of faith. You hope for it to be the best, you hope it will be the better than the rest. You doubt your decision for a second. They both are appealing but you must take only one. You face the biggest question. Which one to take? You know you can't turn back because time never waits.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

In the end after making the choice, in retrospection you realise. You come back to the questions you took while making one of the most important decisions of your life. Only this time, you not only have the answers but also the surety of your choice. Its not like the road less traveled by would be the easiest or even the best but if that is the one taken, the journey will be worth it.

The moment you can answer the questions posed at first, the moment you accept your life, including all the choices you made, the challenges you face, I think you can say for yourself that you've grown up and figured out life a little bit. :)

Moot Part I - Law : A profession of hot AND brainy people!

So there you are, sitting in class classroom as a court master, crammed between the judge's table and the participants. You don't know crap that everyone is speaking about and what everyone is taking about. And the worst of all, you're commanded to sit QUIETLY otherwise a scary senior, who by the way is surprisingly sweet when not under pressure, will kill you.

So yes, there you are and the first match up starts. In the first match up, you sit there, listening to everything intently with an I-understand-or-am-atleast-trying-to-understand-everything expression on your face. But by the end of the first match up you start feeling like a stupid civilian who thinks that all these seniors are speaking Greek. By the third match up, you start looking here and there. You do all you can from passing chits to messaging your friends under the table trying not to get caught. But amidst feeling hungry, looking here and there and not getting caught, you end up realising how cute and young the two judges are.(trust me, they were cute enough  to be stalked on facebook on your phone while they're questioning another senior's memorial and asking why on earth was the defendant sued in the Hon'ble High Court of Delhi.)

After all the stalking, lunch and talking to them (they were utterly sweet, I must say) you even get to know that you have common friends with them. Not only that, you're even told that one of the judges played gully cricket and was neighbours with one of your closest friends. Now how can that not make the whole situation funny?

But moving on and coming back to the topic. So after all the talking, eating, stalking, laughing and taking advice, you start to think about how most of the cute guys you know are presently practicing or studying law. I mean its not even funny how many cute guys are present in this profession. And apart from the cuteness, what makes it better is the fact that they have brains, they have an amazing way of talking, they're super charming and they all look so good in a tux! I mean really, such cute guys, from a random friend's boyfriend to your own batch mate to that batch mate's friends and another friend's roommates. All you feel like saying is "Have Mercy" the was Jessy used to say in fullhouse.

Law was one profession that had the hottest girls after fashion courses (this is authentic information gathred by a survey conducted among my guy friends) but its a good thing that girls have better prospects that the slim-fit-collar-pulled-up-ear-studded-kewl-guys. But well, nothing is perfect. If I have seen the cutest guys, I've also seen the supidest ones. Tha 1s hu thnk itz kewl 2 tok lyk diz. But then lets not get too cynical and be happy with the choices given.

And very frankly, its not only guys. Not based on the common opinion of my guy friends, some of the smartest girls that I've come across are from this profession too. They know how to dress up, thet know how to talk, no guy messes with them because they have an aura of awesomeness around them, all of them, (guys and the girls) know how to party and I even look upto one of smartest chicks I know (though I'm pretty sure she doesn't know I exist. She is wayy senior to me. :P)

At the end of the day I guess we all deserve it. Lets face it, after working our asses off in college, interships and our project submissions, a little eye candy is always welcome. ;)




*This is a totally random post. Don't take to too seriously or get overly critical about it. Please try to enjoy the random-ness behind it rather than making an issue out of it.

Little Things

So, sitting in a boring lecture, next to a guy I met a month and a half back in my new college, he asked me if I would give CLAT again.

Well, for this topic, a little background information, cracking CLAT was my dream. NLU Jodhpur and NALSAR were my dream colleges. NLUJ a little more than NALSAR for funny reasons but yes, going to these two colleges to study law was all that I could think of. The first time I gave CLAT, I wasn't prepared very well so I dropped a year for it and give it again in 2012. And sadly this time too, it didn't take me where I wanted to go.

So, coming back today, this friend asked me if I'd give CLAT again. It was as if someone had stabbed me right in my heart and twisted my stomach. But within that minute, he asked me if I was happy with my current college. And all of a sudden the horrible feeling of failure went away and a smile came across my face and I said, Ï don't mind it here.

Its not like that I have the most amazing college. We have teachers who pronounce the words funnily or the fact that (as I put it) we're the adopted children of  IP University at Amity who have rented premises and have to share a kick ass campus with about 20 different courses. But yes, I don't mind it here.

For actually liking this college, I could give multiple reasons. As funnily a teacher would pronounce a word, some of them are pretty amazing. The seniors are pretty awesome and help us with almost EVERYTHING. They aren't the snobby or means types. And the third and the most important reason being I've seen worse, much worse.

Right now Im doing something I absolutely love. I'm doing the course I wanted to do, I love the subjects and this college makes it to the top 10 law schools in the country. But the previous year, I was in a stupid college where no body liked to work or even cared about anything. College was one place where I didn't wanna go and the whole place basically sucked. The canteen had crappy food. The majority crowd was well.. weird.

So, ýes, having a year of super bad experience in a DU college last year made me appreciate the good points of this college. I mean yes from what I hear the NLUs are amazing and not being able to make it to NLUJ or NALSAR is something I'll always beat myself about but right now, one year of bad experience makes appreciate the little things about where I am today.

Never underestimate the little things. They are pretty much as important as the big ones. Sometime probably a little more than the big ones too. Its the little things that make or break a deal most of the times and if you choose to hate or ignore those things, you can never be happy. Atleast I know that I won't be. :)

You'll never grow up

So, thanks to the facebook timeline, you can review all your past activities and retrospect.
I was going through one of such conversations with a friend. I was sitting in front of my computer waiting for a hot cup of tea and reading all that old stuff, I realised just how much of a kid I was. The way I talked was different, my language was completely different, my way of talking, the way I dressed up, the stuff I said, the people around me, everything was completely different from what I am like today.
Its not like I'm an eighty year old woman right now, I'm just nineteen and I can't help thinking to myself "What the hell was wrong with me back then?"

I'd change the things I said, the way I talked or even the decisions I took that time. The decisions, now I know to be wrong. Maybe I'd like a second chance on everything and maybe change it all. Save the energy on the random fights or the playful insults. But then if I changed it all and I read all that probably after the next few years, wouldn't I still think "What the hell was wrong with me back then?", wouldn't I?

The fact always remains that no matter how maturely you handle your life at one point of time, when you retrospect, you'll always think stuff like "I was such a kid" or "What a confused kid I was?". You can't help it. You'll always end up thinking that. And that is because we think that we're a better version of ourselves today than we were back then. But if you think about it, are we really a better version of ourselves? Yes, we were the confused, bracey, "kewl" kids in the past but we had that innocence and that care-free attitude that let us say "Lolzzz" in place of "Lol". It was because of that confused-yet-care-free-follow-your-heart-and-the-brain-could-go-to-hell attitude that made you take the decisions that you aren't particularly fond of but can't get yourself to hate.

Retrospection is misunderstood. Everyone says its not the best thing to do. I say its the best thing when you're alone with yourself and you want to get a smile on your face. Either its the Oh-I-am-such-a-cool-kid image of yourself that you get to see or the conversations you had with the people around you, it will get a smile on your face. And most of all, no matter the age, you'll end up saying " Ah, I wish I could relive those good ol' days.."

:)

Ps, the best part about this post is, after a couple of years, when I read this, I'll still think, "What the bloody hell was wrong with me?" :)

Bitch!

Epiphany while sitting in the college ground, basking in the sun and thinking about totally random stuff - Be a bigger bitch.

So this whole thing started a couple of days back when I was talking to a friend and I said, "That is life, baby. Its unfair and its a bitch."

Now, I've been pretty satisfied with my life but every once in a while you get those moments when you think that life is such so annoying and why it wasn't easier and crap like that. So today, since the weather was so awesome that I couldn't waste the day by sitting in a class, I bunked all my lectures after the first one and sat in my college ground. While I was enjoying the warm rays of the sun on my face, I started to think about what I said the other day and I realised that yes, life is unfair, it sucks and it is a bitch to all of us every once in a while. But then what do we do about that? Its simple, when life is a bitch to you, you become a bigger bitch.

I mean seriously, watch almost any teenage flick and it'll prove the point.. I watched Easy A last week. Now in that movie, when Olive is considered a "slut" what she does is she pretends to be one, not caring much about it and then in the end tells the truth in a very I-don't-give-a-fuck-about-what-you-think-after-watching-this-video way. So, when life was a bitch to her, she was a bigger bitch to life and what? She ended up with Todd (yes, Penn Badgely is so very cute!). Now, really, how cool is THAT?

I agree that this theory of mine is pretty much based on the teenage flicks and experiences but you know its true, only a super hot bitchy bitch can shut up a stupid snobbish I-own-the-word bitch. You know, its pretty much like the saying, "When life gives you lemon, get some tequila and have a blast." That is true right? Whats the point crying over stuff? Its a lot more fun to open the tequila bottle and enjoy the extra lemons life gave you or like the title of this post, sometimes its fun to be a bitch. ;)

Ps, if you understood a word of any of this, you're probably as crazy as I am, so welcome to the group and if you didn't get a word of it, well, then... get back to whatever you were doing.